When we first look at the 12 steps it can seem a little confusing. The 1st step asks us to admit that we are powerless and that our lives have become unmanageable. Then we read through the rest of the steps and come to the 11th step. The 11th step says that we pray for the knowledge of God’s Will for our lives and the power to carry that out. It can seem a little confusing to say at 1st that it’s necessary to admit we are without power, this being a good thing. Then, turn around and say later that we desire power, this also being a good thing.
The answer lies in whose power are we trusting. Are we trying to live life through our own power, or are we surrendering our wills to God and trusting that His power will be sufficient for our lives? The 1st step makes us aware that we tried to live our lives through our own power and failed. We came to an understanding that we are powerless. The 11th step has us asking for a much greater power and for the knowledge of how to use the power that’s been given to us. We tried to use our own power through our own knowledge and discovered we were living our lives beyond our paygrades.
In recovery, we realize that Christ gives us the gift of power. We now have the power to do things that at one time were impossible. We have the power to look at our lives through a searching and fearless moral inventory. We have the power to face people we had harmed and ask for forgiveness. We have the power to forgive and offer grace. We have the power to know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. Christ has instilled in each of us, great power. And with this power, we can do things that at one time seemed unimaginable. There is nothing more powerful than a life transformed by Jesus.